Thanks in Your TouchThis selfless duty I proudly took on, shamelessly waking at the first peek of dawn.I ignored all the negativity, and kept going strong, they laughed and scoffed and said I was wrong. For wasting my time and for giving too much, But they can’t feel the thanks in your touch. When you hold my finger, or give a bright grin, I know I can do this, this battle I’ll win. Sometimes I second guess, and hope starts to fade, but I still just tell myself, “That’s why they’re made.” To nourish my child, even though it’s been rough, Nature not going as planned, that wasn’t enough. This happened for a reason, although I ask why, to love myself more, my limit’s the sky. I’m misunderstood and a little confused, on why they all laugh and why they abuse. This is my job, I know it is real, shake your head if you like. It is how I feel. I’m dedicated and strong, it may not seem so. It’s trying and painful, as most do not know. Even though there were times I sat back and cried, for just watching you play as I pumped and I tried, To give you the attention I know you did need. You listened so well and followed my lead. Although this time will pass by us so fast. The love I’ve put forth, forever will last. As it nears the end of my journey, I’m sad. For all the life lessons within that it had. You do not understand yet, but someday you may, If you ask me about it, here’s what I’ll say “I never gave in, It wasn’t too much, to feel all your love and the thanks in your touch.” - Lauren, EPing for 12 months 10 Responses to “Thanks in Your Touch” Leave a Reply |
 
 
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October 1st, 2009 at 7:34 pm
mama, that brought tears to my eyes (as i sit hooked up to my PIS for the9th time today. i’m stil hoping to nurse my lo, who is currently 9 wks old, though his adjusted age is almost 4 weeks.
October 4th, 2009 at 8:39 pm
This brought tears to my eyes too-I am currently EP’ing my 5 week old and am committed to making it to 6 months at least. I am so glad I have found this website…it has made me laugh and cry all at the same time!
November 7th, 2009 at 10:30 pm
I am touched and also brought to tears. I am the mother of a beautiful girl born at a tiny 1 lb and 4 oz at 25 weeks. She is now a chubby healthy girl at 6 1/2 months. I have pumped from day 1 and have not given in to the rollercoaster of emotions of guilt or quiting and so wanting to breastfeed so badly for as long as possible. Thank you for this…..
November 11th, 2009 at 6:11 pm
Wow - thank you for this poem!
January 11th, 2010 at 6:18 pm
This brought tears to my eyes-I have been EP’ing for 5 months and am wondering how I will adjust to one day NOT performing this act of love for my little girl.
This is going to be posted next to my pump-thank you.
January 27th, 2010 at 7:33 pm
wow- i love this poem. ive been ep’ing for 6 months for my beautiful daughter with a manual pump. it can be done! i am so glad i can give her breastmilk and i love doing it for her.:D
May 17th, 2010 at 4:45 pm
This is an amazing poem…I feel your heart. You are my hero for lasting that long. I am still pumping for my baby girl at 11 months, and EPing was/is the hardest thing I did in my life…and I could only do it for LOVE…
July 21st, 2011 at 9:54 am
Can’t believe I am crying reading this - it is beautiful and sums up what I have been feeling, even though my son is only 5 weeks old. I have been struggling to BF and have just started thinking I will have to settle for exclusive pumping for as long as I can bear it as I am determined that he will have breast milk for as long as possible.
thank you for this
August 5th, 2011 at 9:00 pm
This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
November 13th, 2011 at 8:40 am
Thank you for this. My sweet little Olivia is almost 4 months old and I have been EPing since we came home from the hospital. She just stopping nursing and would cry every time i tried to nurse her. I needed this poem so badly right now because i am having trouble with my supply and feeling defeated. thank you for this encouragement!